July 17, 2011

Back in the USA (this one's just a read)

Well....I'm back in the States now. I've actually been back for about a month and just haven't really known what to write on here. I'm not very artsy when it comes to photos and have gradually begun taking fewer and fewer pictures as the years go on...but I love words. I know people say that people don't really read the words on a blog...but words are all I have :).

I have to admit that as exciting as transitions can be, I don't like them. I guess no one does really. I love the excitement of a new place (or returning to an old place), rebuilding old friendships, starting new friendships, seeing new places, old places, being reminded of things I enjoy, finding new things to enjoy. However, the problem with the excitement of those discoveries is that it's all jumbled. It's like figuring everything out all over again.

So I guess in times like this I'm glad that there are a few things that always remain constant. My Family. As scattered as they are, and as insanely busy and they will always be...they will always be there. Whether on the other side of the world or in the same city...they're always there for me when I need them (even at times when I think I don't, they're there!).

My friends. I have a few friends in this world that I am connected to like Anne is connected to Diana...kindred spirits. I don't know what it is about that bond between some girls....but it's there. It's a bond that allows you to be totally open and honest about your life. You can lay your raw, bleeding heart on the table and they can put it right back where it goes :). They will laugh with you and cry with you and then make you laugh again! They help you remember the lessons learned from the bad and they get excited with you about all the good!

And the most important constant that there will ever be...Jesus. Even if I can't always "feel" him in the midst of crazy transitions, I KNOW he's there. He's here. He's always here. No matter how much I screw up. No matter how many mistakes I make. No matter how confused I get or how lost I feel. No matter if the sun is shining or the rain is pouring. No matter if I told him I love him today or not. He's here. He loves me. He tells me that every day. I think one of the keys to getting through a transition (for me at least) is to keep looking for those consistencies....for that specific one...to look every day for the kisses and love notes Jesus gives me at the most randomly perfect times in the most beautifully romantic ways :).

*Thank you for my kisses today, Jesus*

1 comment:

  1. i stumbled across your blog post from a year ago when i googled the 'bend in the road' quote from Anne to put in my own blog post. i was blessed by your love for God and excitement to be following Him!
    God bless you as you continue to pursue Jesus!
    Emelyne

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